#but the later “if we knew you were on our block we wouldnt have mugged you” is just amazing and makes me homesick

[fantastic-mr-corvid]

u know wot im gonna talk about attack the block. its a movie made cause the director was fed up of seeing 'hoodie horror' and charecters like Moses[played by John Boyega in his first acting credit], black kids who got involved in bad stuff/expelled from school beeing shorthand for 'pure evil'

he went around interviewing kids to get the language right and meet people like moses. heres the full quote: "We did find some who were quite similar to Moses, who’d been excluded from school or got involved with bad stuff. And they’re not monsters. They’re very empathic, and when you spend a bit of time with them they’re normal and sweet, enthusiastic and bright. But they’ve just been cornered a bit by life, and I think that often the way they’re portrayed doesn’t help with that. Culturally, it makes the problem worse, not better." from an artical in the list

its fun its heartbreking its political its alien designs are awsome and it shows people and community with love that are so often treated like shit when portrayed.

[jess-oh]

Reflection

hey journal!

sorry i havent written in a couple of days. today...was eventful. i took too long in the shower or something and missed the bus this morning. i think? either that or it came earlier than i was anticipating. im pretty sure it was that bc i left my apartment “on time” instead of early like usual and had to wait about 15-20min for the bus. but it came 10min earlier than it’s anticipated time or arrival anyway so it was fine. i stayed awake for most of the ride on the red line but fell asleep towards the end and someone woke me up at howard, hahaha. it was pretty embarrassing, tbh. but then i got off and was waiting about 10min for 290 bus to come. i shouldve just taken the 215 when i had the chance. but this i saw this homeless guy bothering a couple walking away and i thought they were just friends teasing each other at first bc he kept coming back. and then all of a sudden, he was there next to me and asked if i could buy him something. and i felt pretty bad for him and ive been wanting to be more pro-active anyway in helping the community so i thought it’d be fine. he said he had $13 and just needed me to buy him something since the shopowner wouldnt let him in and it was right across the street. i was hesitant at first bc the bus was coming in 10min and i didnt want to be late but since it was just right across the street, i thought it was fine. i was wrong. we walked about 3 blocks and finally got to the store and i knew i for sure wouldnt make it in time for the bus unless there was no line and i sprinted. and i thought he just wanted me to buy him some food or something with his money. but once we got there, i realized he wanted me to buy him a pack of cigarretes and i tried to convince him that im too young and would get IDed. Oh lol. i guess you only have to be 18. i thought it was 21. but regardless, i was pretty disappointed that he just wanted me to buy him something to smoke instead of something to eat. the shopkeeper saw us and started shooing him away and i wanted to back out but i was afraid that i wouldnt be able to cleanly run away. and after continuously pleading with the man that i cant buy the cigars, he said, “okay, just get me a $20 bill then. Please. Just get me a bill. I can give you my $13 but get me a $20″ and I know that I don’t have a lot of money to spare rn so i really didnt want to but he was growing more agitated and aggressive and honestly, i was scared. so i went in and was going to just get him some money and then go off on my way and catch the next bus. the shopkeeper was actually really nice about the whole thing and let me know the guy was gone and that i didnt have to do anything for him. i guess he’s always coming in asking for things. and i checked too and he was right, the homeless guy was gone. but i didnt want to press my luck. so i thanked im and ran in the other direction. i sought refuge in a building and decided to just take a lyft to work instead. it was hot, i was going to be late, and i was mostly afraid that the guy would be at the bus stop again and bother me, asking where the money is or why i didnt help him. honestly, im afraid that hes going to be there again tomorrow and i dont know what im going to tell him. he also showered me in compliments while we walked to the store and i knew he was just flattering me to get me to lower my guard but he definitely stroked my ego. lowkey, but i am a bit afraid that im not going to find love or ever get married so when he was shocked that im not married and called me attractive, i did feel a lot better about myself. 

God, please bless that man let him come to know you. And please bring me protection from him. Please.

But let your will be done. Just let me know what I need to do. I am afraid but I also do want to trust in you, Lord. I hope I don’t regret this.

Work was fine. I decided to listen to music today and was highkey jamming out at my desk but thankfully, those that sit beside me weren’t there today so I don’t think anyone saw me. But i was really getting into it! Haha. 

I was actually really glad I had client work to do bc I really did not want to work on the branding guide/pitch deck/one-pager. I feel like I’ve been working on those for so long and I just did not want to look at it any longer. I started my day by doing my 20min logo sketches and they actually went pretty well. I think I’m getting somewhere but I’m not sure where to go from here. I’m sure I’ll think of something. But yeah, overall it went fine. I did make a few mistakes in terms of pixelation and color. I couldve fixed the pixelation thing the first time around but i wasnt sure how clear they want it to be or if it was just for the sake of a mockup. Whenever Jeremy and Jon visit me in person. I know I screwed up somehow or they have a big project for me. But overall, it was fine. I remembered to pack my lunch and watched some Brooklyn Nine Nine during my break and felt like a real adult! I do fear that I’m running out of food at a rather alarming rate tho. I need to eat more sparingly and pace myself. i only have so much money left and need to last until the 29th! That’s about 10 days. I just need to rely on my groceries for 10 days. And then after that, I will figure out how to allocate my money. Oh but for the color thing, Jon wanted me to send him the brown pen with the logo but I was confused bc he kept asking for the grey one! But it’s brown! I also hardcore struggled with the textwrap and the mug this morning but eventually got it down to a pretty accurate version. It wasn’t perfect but I had been literally working on it for over an hour. Just one side. And I still wasn’t happy with it.

But other than that, I am here. I went to Walgreens with Michaela, she bought my vitamin water, I made dinner and prepared food for tomorrow, i walked 5k more steps to beat Jordan in our 30k competition, did trip on my dress and majorly hurt my ankle, but overall, i’d say today was a success! and i got to finish this before midnight. hopefully i can wake up earlier tomorrow! SMELL YA LATER, BROOKLYN 99